Death Talk

 First Sunday of Lent 2021 (or else something like the 50th Sunday in the Long Lent)

A famous radio talk show host died on Ash Wednesday. A friend sent me a message to tell me (I'd already seen the news) and I said, "I did not amplify his voice while he lived, I'm not going to amplify his voice now that he's dead." 

And I've mostly kept to that. I've commented on a couple of friends' posts about it, but not extensively. And I don't intend to name him here---it won't take a genius to know who I'm talking about anyway. 

I don't have any sort of strict rule about talking well or ill of the dead. I'm not here to put up some kind of example for you to follow in that regard, or to shame anyone who went off on his legacy. I have no judgment for either situation. Because this man was not very nice to anyone who didn't think exactly like him. He was crude and cruel at the deaths of people he didn't like and I cannot hold it against anyone who returns the favor on his death. I understand it and it's only natural, given the life he led. I saw someone say they aspired to live such a life so that their name and "good riddance" didn't trend on Twitter upon their death. 

What can I say? The talk show didn't do that. The kind of life he led has consequences. One of them is that his immediate family has to endure seeing his name and "good riddance" trend together on Twitter. 

And, to be fair, any number of people I consider heroes also died with similar sentiments expressed. MLK, Jr. Harvey Milk. Jesus. So it happens in the best of families. 

Which is another reason not to speak ill of him at his death. I just made that  comparison and it's icky to me. Beating up someone when they're dead only leads to that sort of thing and I'd rather not put fuel on that fire. 

But maybe the issue is to live your life so the right people (whoever you deem them to be) will speak well of you at your death. The talk show host has had plenty of people sing his praises. I'm sure he would consider those the right people for that job, just as he would have considered me the right type of person to piss on his memory. 

Which I'm not, by the way. 

The posts that hurt me the most were the ones that consigned this guy to hell. That's a theological statement and one that I strongly disagree with. I can admit he was a divisive, terrible person without sending him to hell. 

Because, honestly, I'm not so sure about hell anymore. My belief and worship and love goes to a God of grace. Deep, wide, unconditional grace. As much I find it hard to think of the talk show host in terms of love, I do believe that God loves him. Does Love condemn? Anyone? 

 Friends who are more closely aligned to my way of thinking (about hell) say things like, "The talk show host now  knows the extent of God's mercy ad love and isn't he surprised?" Or maybe something like "If he finds himself  in the afterlife and finds himself with homosexuals, undocumented migrants, and feminists, won't that be his definition of hell? Which means the converse might be the same---when I find myself in the afterlife and meeting the likes of this talk show host, will I mistake eternity for hell? I'd rather think that maybe the notion of Purgatory is on to something, that maybe there's some purification process so that by the time we actually enter into the company of saints, we see one another lovable.

(Actually, none of these images for the afterlife work for me. I really don't spend a lot of time thinking about it, but I do think all of the images are just that, holding place pictures until we experience the real thing.) 

I make no excuses for the evil done by anyone. We have to do the clean up, sometimes for years, decades, and generations afterward. I'm sure I've caused some to have to do some cleanup after me, as well.

And it's okay to not amplify some voices. Silence is the most grace I, personally, can offer some people. The rest is up to the extravagant grace of God.